"What are you afraid of?"

During a conversion with Phil the other night, he asked what I was afraid of. Its a question I've been asked before, but this time I thought through and worked on answering him. The question was asked in reference to certain social situations. Here's what I came up with.

I'm afraid of not being good enough.

I'm afraid of not living up to other people's expectations.

I'm afraid of not living up to my own expectations.

I'm afraid of being laughed at.

I'm afraid of being made fun of.

I'm afraid of scaring people off if they see whats really inside me.

I'm afraid that i can't maintain the mask forever.

I'm afraid if what's under the mask.

 I'm afraid there's nothing under the mask.

I know these are all irrational fears, and shouldn't matter, but they do. I don't expect them to disappear anytime soon, but acknowledging them is the first ep to dealung with them.